Woohoo for one entire month of bad days back-to-back!

If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills, would a landslide bring it down?

Free.

Right now I feel free. I don't feel like I owe anybody anything! I have lost that floaty lovey feeling and it has been replaced with a have fun and then feel later feeling. I now realize how stupid I have been and will try to not repeat those mistakes. I learned that females are nothing but trouble and a waste of time at this point in my life and I need to keep my cool. I have a lot ahead of me and most of it promises to be good. I am starting to lose more weight, getting my broken teeth fixed later this week, and finding a job.I feel good!

These past few days...

So these past few days have sucked. I have been tired and haven't done a lot. I started working out again since I need to get in shape. Other than that I pretty much have had a bad week thanks to people not paying me back so I couldn't fly and haven't flown for almost a month now. I also am 120% sure I lost my friend but she's becoming a social butterfly and as long as she's happy. I hope to meet another person like her, she is awesome. I also met awesome people this week, none are pilots but they are still cool never the less!

Since I can't find a job I am going to make my own money this summer and in the end try to better myself. I don't know about if/where we're going to move but I guess I'll take it one day at a time. I have college next next winter or spring (still trying to decide), have to start saving up for my own place, and get my affairs in order.

For now white side up.
  I wish there was a time machine though, so many mistakes made!

My weekend :(

So this weekend sucked. I got food poisoning for 3, going on 4 days now and felt really sad this entire weekend. I feel sick!!! Also I'm pretty sure now that my friend has basically gotten tired of me and just blocked me outta their life. It sucks because I really valued them extremely high and they meant a lot to me :( . I also realized this weekend that I don't truly like Rika, I just am desperate for a gf! Sounds odd to be excited to have an epiphany that you are desperate but I feel better about my morals now that I realize our morals clash.

No flying for me :(

So on this wonderful Saturday morning about 10 people I know are going flying. I am not :( . I also just had to cancel my flight for tomorrow thanks to people not paying me back on time. Now I have to wait until next Sunday @ 6pm to go flying since that is the earliest opening. This sucks. Let's hope there is no convective activity that day either, especially since the worst air occurs around 4-6pm and that is also when a lot of storms form.

Homemade Banjo

Rika.

      So my frenemy has now "fallen in love" with flying. -*Sigh*- She took an intro flight the day after my birthday and has since accumulated 7.4 hours in airplanes and a glider (A FUCKING GLIDER!) . She is one hell of a spoiled brat. Today she knocked on my door and came in, first thing she said was " Look!" She is a student pilot now :( (I HAVE YET TO GET MY STUDENT PILOT CERTIFICATE SINCE I JUST TURNED 16!) She almost has the same amount of time I have, but I know I am a better pilot. I pay attention to every nut and bolt and every degree of the exhaust gas; she barely pays attention while driving. I am working on Pre-solo stuff (slips,emergency procedures,landings,go-arounds,etc.) She is still on " The Four Fundamentals"... 

    I think I am beginning to like her now that she is flying. Sounds very wrong and shallow but hey, her mom is an engineer for Boeing and does freelance for Lockheed Martin, she wants to become an engineer too (doubt it will happen), and I just love flying and the people that fly. It may also be due to something that happened to me this month where my heart kinda got snapped like the wing ribs of a Piper J-3 Cub in a 7g maneuver...but I'll get over it soon enough. Either way today I scared myself when I saw her while she was playing her 3DS and I thought," She's kinda pretty." I keep doing this, I keep focusing on looks of the aircraft (person) instead of the pilot (the real person) inside. I personally don't particularly care too much for boobs or "ass" but I LOVE, and I mean LOVE eyes. (Maybe its because mine are dull and lifeless?) I also love noses and their shape (prob cuz mine is huge and bell pepperish) and the color and shape of lips. Her's are nice and pink but ANYWAYS before I drool, THIS is the problem. For now I just gotta remember that there is better out there and that I might get lucky one day. I just want to be a normal teen though but I am anything but average so I guess it just comes with the territory.

Let's Go Flying!

This week is flying week! Plenty of airchair flying this past weekend, time to do the real thing! 3 flights in 7 days :D Let's hope I dont have an issue pop up. N89464 is on my blacklist, lost 12 cowling screws,sputtered, & buffets weirdly!