My weekend :(

So this weekend sucked. I got food poisoning for 3, going on 4 days now and felt really sad this entire weekend. I feel sick!!! Also I'm pretty sure now that my friend has basically gotten tired of me and just blocked me outta their life. It sucks because I really valued them extremely high and they meant a lot to me :( . I also realized this weekend that I don't truly like Rika, I just am desperate for a gf! Sounds odd to be excited to have an epiphany that you are desperate but I feel better about my morals now that I realize our morals clash.